Posted by fallsfall on August 22, 2003, at 17:33:46
I had a yucky therapy session yesterday.
My therapist doesn't like me taking meds. I'm supposed to start to stop my meds in September. But he thinks that I have a psychological dependency on the drugs so that when I stop them I'll feel worse even if the drugs aren't helping. I do not know what I can do for that not to be true (either to not be dependent, or to have the experiments with the drugs be correct).
So that brings me back into transference hell. I think he is unhappy with me, but there isn't anything I can do to fix it. I believe that if he is mad (or some other negative emotion) at me that I am evil. Somehow, this doesn't feel very good.
He did say that I could call if I wanted to - so at least he understood that I was upset.
It is hard to figure out how I feel about him. I haven't been with him long enough to love him to death, but I'm trying to look at this situation analytically so I don't get too sucked into the emotions. I don't know if that will work.
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