Posted by cerodwen on July 17, 2003, at 16:02:44
when I am in my therapists office (or talking to my mom) we tend to discuss things that need to be done sometimes, like I need to do some homework or I need to clean my room or Just something that is giving me a lot of anxiety and I want to get it done but I'm procrastinating.
When I'm in the office, during the conversation, it is easy enough to say yes and nod okay I will do that or yes I can do that but then when I'm not there and I'm at home these things are so much harder to do i lose all my focus and seem to have no will power. I guess to sum up I am have having trouble relating the good ideas from session to actions in my life.
My current situation: I went and saw my therapist last afternoon, and she was full of good ideas for things that could help me, like studying with someone else or asking a housemate for help but then she said, you say you can do these things but is that theoretical or reality and I'm like... it depends on where i'm at mood-wise.
but I am so freaked out about my midterm tomorrow I know I will fail and I just can't study because there is too much to study and now I'm freaking out and don't want to go to lab. which is a big deal to miss lab. it's in 2 hours and i have to prep and my brain is all weird and i'm getting dizzy every time I stand up and I'm just like it's 2pm and i've been in bed all day why even try to redeem this stupid sucky day.
although i know somewhere that if i go to lab i'll feel better and even if i fail this midterm i can still pass the class and passing is better than failing even though its not my initial goal of an A... sometimes its just so hard to even get out of bed though.
poster:cerodwen
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