Posted by fuzzymind on March 18, 2003, at 10:57:07
The roof is a complete shambles beause of age, raccoons, weather...hasn't been replaced in over 30 years. My parents visited this Friday and are still here, and want me to call roofing contractors to have the roof repaired. I have been going in anxiety overdrive , procrastinating. The house is a pig sty.....ever see those contests of the messiest homes in the country?....well I could compete. My mom says the roofing contractor would have to come inside and look around, but I insist what is the point...replace the entire roof...lots of spongy areas in the decking.
I called one contractore yesterday, he was supposed to call back yesterday or today. He may have called back yesterday, but I was in one of my depression sleeps and no one answered the phone.
Another point of anxiety is trying to remember all I need for the work....liability insurance, tarp, permits, etc....
BUt the worst part of the anxiety is my parents' past experience with contractors .ALL of them ripped them off. Maybe it was my mom spoke with a thick accent and my dad hid at work so he left my mom to deal with the redneck workers(come on Dr B, don't ban me for this). I don't have the fortitude or commucication skills to deal with crooks.
I would like to just have them measure, look at hte roof, explain what they would do, and I put in what I would need, then they get me a bid. I DO NOT want anyone in this pigsty. PArt of my addiction to avoidance...I probably keep this place a mess so that I have excuses not to deal with contractors and workmen. I am so f****g ashamed of everything about me. This roof needs to be replaced...should have been replaced over 10 years ago. Caused lots of damage to ceilings nad the garage.This house is a microcosm of my life.....damaged, chaotically dishevelled. My prison and yet my place of solace away from the real world. I don't like the real world intruding , which I consider the gas meter reader, which I haven't let in for over 4 years.HELP!!
poster:fuzzymind
thread:210339
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