Posted by bozeman on March 16, 2003, at 4:42:58
In reply to Re: Tabitha and Ginjoint » bozeman, posted by Ginjoint on March 15, 2003, at 16:18:03
Hi Ginjoint
Have been turning over the artificial insemination thing in my mind for several years. The big problem is, then I'd be raising a kid by myself, and me with my high-stress-long-hours job. Not good. For the kid's sake, if not for my own, I'd rather have a "father" in the picture. Then, some days, I think the only way I'd want a kid was if the "father" (donor) had no rights to tell me what to do raising the kid. Such is the convoluted path of that double-edged knife. (You have no idea how funny that image is to me! Something like Jackie Chan meets my high-school biology class.)
But like you, I have to take one day at a time. Especially now, since I can seldom think farther than the end of the day. Got freaked out earlier reading on MSN about that new respiratory disease that they can't find cause or cure for, that's sometimes fatal and very communicable, since I've had this crud for going on four weeks now and just can't shake it. Then I decided if I die, then I won't care any more! If I don't, then it's no problem! Kind of weirdly obvious but true.
Anyway, thanks for the encouragement, I need it right now. Mentally in a (seemingly) pretty good place -- but then, I'm feverish, what do I know? There's an answer for us, I know there is, we just haven't found it yet.
Peace, my friend --
bozeman
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