Posted by Krissy P on March 14, 2003, at 0:09:42
Hi all, I just wanted to share. I have just been through so much with these meds. But, I have to say that I am in a good mood. But more importantly, because I really told myself that I am NOT responsible for my family's happiness. I am grateful I have a place to live, however, my mom is one of the most negative people I have met. I actually talked to myself and told myself that I am not responsible for her or anyone else's happiness and for some reason, it works better when I actually SAY it so I can HEAR it. Anyone relate?
My point is, is that sometimes I get caught up in trying to change people-ESPECIALLY my family that I forget me and my dreams, goals, and needs-something NO med is going to give me. I truly believe that meds certainly help and I am not saying they have no use-obviously. They are a blessing to all of us, not always, but nonetheless, a blessing. I truly believe that our minds are very, very powerful and sometimes when we actually stop-and reflect-and ask what am I doing to allow me to feel a certain way, or what I am trying to control-if anything, and what can I do to feel better? has proved to me that our negative feelings can be fought and changed. I've had a horrible few years and I pray that I keep recovering. I am aware of what I need to do, and my own limits.
As far as Lamictal-last night I took 50mg and slept well, and had no dreams. I didn't have any cycling today, and if I felt the depression creeping in, I immediately prayed, and thought of positive things. I have many feelings, as I know we all do, that I cannot share on this board, but I wanted to also continue to share my experience getting back on this Lamictal and Effexor-XR (even though 50mg of Lamictal is not even a therapeutic dose;)) I was telling Ron, that I am one of those people that do not need large doses of meds to get a positive effect, and many of my docs have remarked the same. That surprises me, because I am heavy set, thinking the more weight you have, the more meds you need. I wonder if that is even true? I will take 50mg Lamictal tonight also, and continue to be patient and chill, like I am so good at advising sometime others of doing, but at the same time, being gentle with myself (a tough one)
I also want to say that I am very thankful for you all, and I appreciate the caring, concern, and help regarding my posts-and nope, I'm not manic-I just wanted to post this because I respect each and everyone of you for sharing, helping, and being a survivor. *hugs*
That's all I wanted to say:-):-)
Kristen
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