Posted by gambol on January 30, 2003, at 16:45:23
hello to all,I enjoy visiting this site and thought I would make an attempt ,with my first post.
For over 2 decades I've been thru the emotional wringer.Addictions >food ,booze,& cocaine <,deep depressions and acute anxiety.I've ran the gamut of professional talk therapiat,psychiatrist (med dispenser),12 step of various versions,self help> books,books,tapes,and oh did I mention books!!I even went for strict fundamental religion once >if I could just be rightous enough< maybe I would feel better.I'm not going to bash any of the methods or helpers that I encountered along the way.I did have various therapist that were much better suited to be in the therapy field than others.Really the one period that I would have rather not exposed myself to was the almost cult like bible thumpers.I say this because ,I was young ,hurting and really lost,and I thought I was doing the right thing,in the end I only became more depressed and seperated from other people.This experience has left inner scars that make it difficult to develop a healthy spiritual life ,from a more mature perspective. I have been exposed to and responded to many schools of therapy and a laundry list of meds.I have progressed and regressed thru out all of this period.I apologize for the long "where I been stuff< but I just wanted to let you know where I've been.I have a growing interest in the work of Eugene Gendlin and Ann Weiser Cornell> their work helps >us types< to pay attention to our bodies ,our felt sense .I am making personal progress with this work.I tell ya I'm coming from a place ,where my belief has become >if talking about my problems or verbalizing them as with a therapist,and taking the prescribed actions were going to stabilize me ,then I ought to be weller than well.I share this asking for others ideas and thoughts,again I'm not 100 % but I've made some real progress.I might also add that ,for financial reasons I will begin working with a therapist (psychologist) in training at a large university in our town.Free thank goodness.I really hope to be able to get her to incorporate focusing into our work together.Even as a self help method it's one process that has struck a chord with me ,as Gendlin would say,in a felt sense. thanks every one gambol
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