Posted by cubbybear on January 29, 2003, at 9:13:53
In reply to Re: In the depths of depression--please help, posted by indirect00 on January 28, 2003, at 20:40:19
> Yes, I can definitely relate to your experience. Your symptoms are identical to mine. I had depression for about a year. I can relate to the strong feelings of hopelessnes, worthlessness, and helplessness. The only thing that kept me alive was the hope that one day I would be happy.
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> I always give the same advice to those suffering from depression: Imagine yourself being happy. If it is at all possible for you to be happy (and it is), isn't it worth looking into treatments rather than just giving in to suicide? Happiness may be hard to achieve sometimes, but it is well worth the effort to achieve, no matter how hard it may be. Take my word for it, perhaps the greatest feeling in the world is being relieved of depression. If you can find a medicine that works for you, you cannot imagine how great it will feel. Talk to a psychiatrist, please. Get help, you deserve it.
Thanks for your very welcome response.. The fact is that I DID have a medicine that worked for me for 18 years-MAO Parnate, but it is not available where I live (Thailand). I'm seeing a pdoc weekly who presently has me on 600 mg. Moclobemide (Aurorix)--an AD that has drawn mixed responses on this board. So far it hasn't kicked in ( yet), and today I sunk so low that I started wondering if the drug itself could be worsening my depression. (I read that the chances of an AD causing worsened depression are less than 1% so it's probably that I just haven't responded to the med so far. But today I felt the worst torture of my entire life--and I've experienced depressive/anxiety episodes for about 30 years. You may say, "well if you made it through them all, you'll get through this one," but honestly I don't ever recalling it being this bad. The psychological pain was so excruciating that I felt like my life and future were hanging on a thread. I don't mean that I was consciously feeling suicidal. It just felt like I was forever trapped in a world of pain and will never get out of this. I hope to go to t he U.S. in March or April and will get the Parnate again if the Moclobemide proves a failure. Indirect00, please keep talking to me, as much as possible, I don't have any real support system here. People like you are my only source of encouragement in any way.
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