Posted by mair on November 19, 2002, at 16:02:39
In reply to Ever at a loss for words in therapy?, posted by waterlily on November 19, 2002, at 15:25:09
Your post could have been about me. When I'm in crisis mode, there's no doubt what's going to be discussed so although I may feel awful, I'm not quite as tongue tied.
My therapist's take is that this happens when I'm feeling better. Therapy doesn't seem as necessary so I'm not sure my heart is really in it. Also it may be a matter of trust. My therapist views times of better health as her opportunity to work on things more deeply and in a way that she can't when I'm more non-functioning. But I'm not an altogether willing participant. I just think that I'm so unaccustomed to opening up about some things, and I just haven't reached the comfort level with my therapist to overcome all of my inherent reticence. I view it as having nothing to say, having no "issues," whereas it may partially be that I'm only comfortable talking about the things I have to reveal and not the things that she'd like to hear.
If you figure out how to deal with this, let me know. It makes me feel very equivocal about therapy, and suspicious of the nature of my connection or nonconnection to my therapist.
Mair
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