Posted by tom_traubert on October 12, 2002, at 6:28:19
In reply to whats the point, posted by tim carr on October 11, 2002, at 13:25:03
OK. everyone who visits this website has been where you are right now. you will disagree and say yes they've been suicidal, but they haven't had my bad luck and this hole is just too deep. everyone on this site has been there and we are still here and for some of us the reason we are still here is because each other's support and empathy. talk a bit more on this site about your situation and you will find more than a few people to relate to. I've been there a bunch of times, and it came real close, and every time I spun out of it I was so damn grateful to be alive. I'm sorry about your cat, I'm sorry you feel like complete shit, I really am. I'm not asking you to feel better, I'm just asking for your patience. Wait through the heavy lows and when you come up for air breathe deep, take as much air in, as much positivity in as your cynicism allows, and then more than it allows, and if you sink back down, wait some more.
no place to stay? I assume you getting meds from a MD and he or she can give you information on social services available in your area. If not, you're on the internet--there are facilities to help in these unfortunate times and the info is out there.I don't know what moves you, and when you're in this mood hardly anything does, I know that, but what has moved you in the past? If it doesn't give you inspiration now, how did it give you inspiration before? You might say 'well, I was young and didn't know how hard life was and didn't have to deal with this hell and nothing can ever inspire me again.' Bullshit. It sounds right and feels perfectly right but it is exaggerated and distorted, believe me. Just ask yourself, where do you see those inspirational qualities now? They're there, even if you can't see them. And if they never were there for you, it doesn't mean they were never there. Pick something you might find moving, uplifting, and see if it fits. For me it was always music. The walkman is probably the number one therapeutic device ever invented. Pick a classical station or whatever, and go for a walk. Is it cold where you are? Even better. Put on some more clothes and go for a short walk and you'll feel the wind against your face, the air as you take it in, reminded that your lungs are miraculously and automatically turning this cold air into life without you having to think about it at all. There are many things operating beneath and above what you can see right now in your state, so just please be patient and please give yourself the permission to breathe.
Please forgive me if I sound preachy, but this is what has kept me out of the hole. Good luck to you. You are not alone.
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