Posted by judy1 on August 3, 2002, at 11:30:29
In reply to Re: Trust and fear » .tabi.T.ha., posted by Dinah on August 3, 2002, at 9:21:10
Well if anyone understands your fear of abandonment, I do Dinah. I have gone on ad nauseum about my ex-shrink's crossing of boundaries- but what really 'destroyed' me was that he abandoned me, once his colleagues told him he had overstepped boundaries he calmly informed me he could never see me again (after 2 years). I think that may be the worst case scenario, and yes I did attempt suicide but in retrospect I think I did it to hurt him. I had called him early in the morning and when he returned the call I had ODed and was slurring my words. He called 911, my stomach was pumped and I was held 72 hours. I relate this story because I sense your pdoc has never overstepped his boundaries, and has in fact reassured you he will be there for you. So this is your own insecurities speaking and you need to ask him if that's something the two of you can work on. It is critical to moving forward (I'mjust learning all of this- maybe we can together :-) and as I write it I think what a miracle it is that I am trusting a male pdoc again. I wish you all the best, and commend you on the progress you've made so far. Take care, judy
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