Posted by Simcha on July 16, 2002, at 0:46:30
Ok folks,
It's been a long while since I've written here and I see some changes in format. I hope I'm not breaking any of the new policies..
Anyway..
I've been very busy. My combination is:
AM: 20mg Celexa + 100mg WellbutrinSR
Afternoon: 20mg Celexa + 100mgWellbutrinSR
Before Bed: 1mg KlonopinIn the last three months here is a laundry list of the events in my life.
1. Fired because I turned my boss in for harassment
2. My brother's girlfriend committed suicide
3. My brother attemped suicide, failed, and went back into the hospital (He suffers from Depression too)
4. One of my close friends died of Hepatitis C
5. Looking for work not finding any
6. Applying for unemployment
7. Broke up with boyfriend of 11 months
8. Reevaluation of life goals
9. Apply for school to get an MA in Counseling Psychology with a specialization in Transpersonal Psychology (JFKU)
10. Apply for financial aid
11. Fly from Davenport, IA (then home) to Oakland, CA to find work, get accepted to school, secure financial aid and find a place to live in the area. (Doing this within a span of 2 weeks!)
12. Upon completion of #11 tasks returning to Iowa to pack and make arrangements for the move.
13. Say goodbye to friends.
14. Pack
15. Find moving company and make arrangements
16. Drive from Davenport, Iowa to Oakland, CA with my cat.
17. Start work
18. Start school
19. Unpack
20. Establish IDs with California and switch insurance and all the other junk that goes with settling in a new State and city.Well, I'm now in school, working and I'm settling into my new home. I have found that I'm very tired, more tired than I was before all of this transition. I think that I'm borderline depressed...
I think that if it weren't for the medication I would never get out of bed and face my day. Things are getting better. I just need to remember that I've been through a lot. I've handled most of it very well. And I've been able to basically take care of myself. (I've had moments...)
I need to remember that I am recovering from Major Depressive Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and that needing more sleep comes with the territory.
I just keep beating myself up over needing to rest.. It's like I expect myself to be super-human or something..
Oh yeah, and transfering prescriptions from Iowa to California was a major hassle that required an entire day of calling and pleading... What a mess! I'm glad that I've established myself at a pharmacy here now.
And, I still need to find a psychiatrist/psychotherapist. I need to continue my medication firstly and secondly the school requires their students to be in therapy. (The philosophy is that you cannot be a good therapist unless you are dealing with all of your own issues in therapy.)
Well, I've babbled enough... I welcome replies and suggestions for taking it easy and not feeling guilty about it....
Take Care,
Simcha
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