Posted by sid on May 22, 2002, at 18:17:27
Excellent discussion today. I continue the same meds for dysthymia (Effexor XR, 75 mg a day).
And my doc recommended a specific therapist that she knows for my sexual abuse issues. She must be good - there's a 2 months waiting list. Since I'll be away in July, I'll only meet her for the 1st time in August. That's ok. At least, I have a very specific topic to deal with, I know it. Also, I'm convinced it's my last issue to deal with in therapy, so that's encouraging!My doc was finally convinced that I don't have BPD, after I brought her an entire file of info, test results and messages from former therapists. Not an issue anymore. Now it's clear that the issue is me being sexually victimized when I was a child, a teenager, and still now.
Anyway, I'm pretty proud of myself, I have gone a long way in the past 3 weeks, since my last appointment when we argued about me potentially having BPD. Amazing how I put order in my things. Well, the brother in law being an ass last Sunday "helped" to make things very clear for me, and for my doctor. It was such a shock to still be disrespected like that, I had to realize what THE problem was. I used to not want to talk about all this because I was so embarrassed. Now I can't stop talking about it!
Thank you all - you really helped me towards the next step, towards healing. Towards talking about it without shame.
Oh, and I'm getting info from child protection services as to what to do about my niece. I don't want to ruin her family if I don't have to, and if things can improve, but I do want her to get all the info and resources she needs to deal with her father's behavior. I will talk to her again and let her know she can count on me anytime. I may give her mom and her dad written info on sexual harrassment/abuse too, so they get an education on the topic, and so they know I am watching. Next year, if I'm still in the same urban area (I don't have a permanent job, so I may end up elsewhere), and if I have a better job, I will get a 2 bedroom apt and invite her to live with me while she goes to college. I think getting her out of her parents' house and into a healthier environment would be good for her.
- sid
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