Posted by terra miller on June 29, 2002, at 22:00:14
In reply to terra...., posted by judy1 on June 29, 2002, at 20:55:38
don't feel too bad. i'm at that stage (again) right now, too. i know that i am having flashbacks, but they last what seems like milliseconds before they go back down again. i'm barely aware enough to notice that i'm flashing/triggering. (which is one step ahead of having no idea why i am irritable... at least i know i'm irritable from flashing.)
i think that right now i am really functioning high because i have lots of stress going on. as a result, everything is tight and surviving marvelously like a well oiled machine. so, i don't remember much even though i know stuff is still coming up. once the stress lessens, then inside things will loosen up a bit and i will be less on guard and then more can come up and out for longer durations so that i can have the time to look at it and learn from it. as it is right now, i think my insides know that i don't have time to deal with new memories, so they are being kept from me. soon i will have less stress to deal with, and i will be allowed to process more memories..... and you'll know because i'll post something like: AHHHHHHHHHHH, IT HURTS. or something to that degree.
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