Posted by johnj on June 25, 2002, at 19:54:50
I had been stable for almost 10 years and have been fighting a battle since last September. I have been sleeping horrible even after upping my benzo tranzene from 7.5 mg to 22.5 mg. I am a zombie in the morning and just can't get to sleep or wake up early. I cannot excercise due to my mood creaping even lower(possible med problem?). I just want a nights sleep in peace.
My doctor says the insomnia is a symptom of my depression. I actually don't feel too depressed just exhausted and sleepy. I don't know what to do and at work today three of us talked to our supervisors boss since he has been harassing one the employees. It felt good to get it off my chest and stick up for someone while others just turn their heads. I handled the situation well, I just don't handle the anticipation to the confrontation well. I feel maybe I should quit my job, but that is not a smart option. In the past there was some situation that sent me feeling bad. Right now, I don't have too many pressures, but find myself sinking into the quicksand. I feel I must be getting crazier by the day, and will just pop one day and end up in the hospital. Sorry for the rant, but I am so spent. I am also afraid to try any new meds....I take 50mg of nortryptline, 600 mg lithobid and 15 to 22.5 mg of tranzene. Is this a disease that will truley get worse and there is no real recovery? Sometimes I wish I would sleep and wake up like the days before the panic attack and depression.
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