Posted by wendy b. on June 19, 2002, at 0:30:12
In reply to crash after 3 good days, posted by judy1 on June 18, 2002, at 20:37:21
> I spent 2 days at a seminar- mostly 'present', then a driving test yesterday (to keep my license after a seizure). Today was therapy day and I crashed- didn't make it (my therapist was understanding) and basically lost the entire day- looked at the clock and it was 9 hours later. I'm venting I think, just feel discouraged. Sometimes it's worse when you do well and fail, then failing all along. A pessimist judy.
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I'm sorry you're feeling so badly about everything, Judy. Two steps forward, one back? Still, you're moving ahead. Don't be discouraged, I sure know what it's like.
Today, I am struggling with the knowledge, or the feeling (?) that I've never been able to commit to anything in my life. It's like: I ultimately don't care about anything, don't want to do anything for any length of time because my world-view is so hopeless. So how could anything be worth commiting to? Relationships, jobs, etc. I am easily complacent. Makes lovers and bosses nutty. Makes ME nutty...
Anyway, this is a roundabout way of saying I'm struggling, too, not in the same way as you are, but I get it. Chin up, check in again if you need to.
yours,
Wendy
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