Posted by mair on May 31, 2002, at 7:54:32
In reply to I hoped someone would think that was odd, posted by katekite on May 30, 2002, at 12:55:43
"I called yesterday and cancelled today's appointment... in a bizarre way was too depressed for therapy. I think he's good when I'm not depressed or feeling hypochondriacal."
When I am most depressed, I most don't want to go to therapy appointments for a variety of reasons, probably the most prominant being that it's just more difficult for me to talk. I place too much emphasis on being cogent and it's hard for me to give that up. Also I have this reaction when the real issue on the table is therapy or my relationship with my therapist. I can think of a lot of forms of torture that are more appealing that discussing those topics.
My therapist however, has convinced me that although sessions may not be as productive when I'm more depressed, they are important - that I need to reach the point where I feel comfortable with her even when it's difficult for me to articulate things well. I've noticed also that part of my reluctance arises from the fact that I just don't want to talk about what's really bothering me - she's trying to get me over the feeling that I need to filter and package things for her. She also has really stressed how important it is for me to raise therapy or patient/therapist relationship issues with her either because there is some form of transference going on that needs to be discussed or because I need to be a lot more comfortable confronting relationship matters directly and her office is the safest place to do that.
I don't think it augers well that you might be avoiding therapy and your therapist perhaps because you feel uncomfortable with how he approaches things with you (or doesn't).
Mair
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