Posted by James K on March 12, 2006, at 22:08:58
In reply to Re: Can Epstein Barr cause mental symptoms? » James K, posted by spriggy on March 12, 2006, at 19:36:55
> Thanks James.. I appreciate your answer and it makes sense.
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> How did yours start? Do you recall a starting point?
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----It was june 1994. I was 25 years old. I had been through a major depression and substance abuse, then my first treatment. I was on Prozac, my first psych med. I had spent 3 months in a halfway house with ex-cons and drug addicts and I had been physically ill, panic attacks and malnourshished. After a suicide attempt or two, I moved in with my still wife, and put weight back on, stayed sober, and exercised myself into (male model *grin*) physical shape.Then I decided to go up north on a road trip with my biological family to visit my grandparents. My dad had just returned from South America for business, and had apparently picked up a virus. On the drive, he, me, and my 5 (?) year old nephew started to get sick. I shared a bed with my nephew. I told them I was sick, they said, get your *ss out there and paint the shed. I did. My temp went to 104. My chest hurt. I thought I might die. They took me and my dad to a local small town doctor. They said he had pneumonia, and I had a cold. I got mad, because this was no cold. My mother asked me "why are you so angry all the time.", I said "because you hit me too much" she said "You have false memory syndrome" I said "Take me to a bus station." I ended up flying home that night. The sickest I've ever been as an adult. I'm sorry to the other people on the flight. I got home, pleurisy, orchitis, fever, night sweats, no insurance. I lost everything. I stayed in bed for months. I've worked and pushed and drank ever since. Sometimes, I think I'll have a heart attack, like last night. One time I decided to sleep on the floor on an air mattress, and after a couple of days, I moved the bed clothes, and there was puddles of sweat. Nothing matters.
I'm down right now. so don't think it's all bad. I've lived a wonderful life with love and friendship and fun and sucessful jobs. It hits sometimes. I'd look for good cfs sites, like the Dallas cfs society, (I don't remember what they are called). I'm rambling, sorry.
James K
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