Posted by kerria on September 16, 2005, at 22:52:04 [reposted on September 19, 2005, at 20:02:55 | original URL]
In reply to Re: PS » kerria, posted by ed_uk on September 16, 2005, at 15:29:34
There is no dr to admit me to a hospital. i don't have a dr :(
The dr who prescribed the pain medicine - i only saw him once. He just asked what helped me before and gave it to me because he knew i was in real pain and wanted to help. In the meantime i have time to see a pelvic pain specialist to see if anything more can be done.
The pain management dr that's been treating me for a year with pain medicine and the nerve block was refusing to treat me anymore and put me on Kadian because he wants to just wean me off medicine. he made statements like 'you don't have a dx' and 'doesn't want to lose his license'.
Then when he found out about my mental disorder he said 'why should i have to pay for botched therapy.' It became horrific to go to him and i can't be weaned off medicine without a procedure that works because i'm in way too much pain.There isn't a way that it's possible to live in the pain. Now i just had a fresh reminder how much it hurts without medicine and it's so so bad.
i'm scared to death about living in the pain again and i'd love to have a doctor right now who could admit me to help adjust the pain medicine but i don't. i called the new dr's office and talked to the nurse practioner there- they wouldn't let me talk to the dr- and she said that if i get migraines that i should go to another dr- not a gyn , that it was out of their scope of treatment.
and i don't want to bug this dr that wanted to help. i have nobody to help with medicine , the nurse said that the dr said going from Kadian to oxycontin was not a problem. It really is and i don't know why he doesn't know and i don't know why no one can find the cause of my pain but i pray that these drs will believe me.Why i can't go to a hospital-
When the pain dr first put me on Kadian six weeks ago or so, i went to an ER because the Kadian didn't help my sharp pain. It took weeks to work well enough- but the ER dr was so so negative towards me- calling the pain managemt dr and getting his negative view of me- that he wouldn't even treat me. They wouldn't even call a gyn or help at all and my pain then was an 8 on a 1-10 score. i left crying in pain. Other people there, nurses and patients were stunned also, that the dr didn't treat me. My BP was so high and i was in so much pain that the triage nurse bumped me to the top of the list to be seen and then the dr refused to help. All ERs will treat me like this because they share information. i have a mental disorder, an OD once, psych hospital history. i can't just go to a hospital. i'll probably end up in horrific pain screaming in a psych hospital with no one listening.There's never anyone to help me. i always get these disorders that are so rare and undiagnosed or can't treat:(
same with psych dx.Having a hard time today, especially after seeing T.
Feeling so abandoned by everyone.i'm so afraid to be in pain again, so afraid of doing the medicine wrong. i wish that i had a doctor for the physical pain, a T that will help, supportive family, everything . i'm in so much need for everything now. Why does everyone have these things except me?
i'm sorry- everything is so hard for me here. Everything is so hard. It's impossibly difficult.
k :(
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