Posted by Miss Honeychurch on January 4, 2005, at 15:16:12
Each year I make the same resolution - GO TO THE DOCTOR! However, I have a deep fear of doctors, stemming from my first experience ever at the OB GYN which resulted in the breaking of my hyman (which had to be done)but was excrutiating.
My history with doctors for the past 15 years has been a flurry of activity due to a hypochondriacal episode with much poking and prodding and tests. I am traumatized by this. I therefore feel after everythig comes back all clear, that I have carte blanche not to keep up with my health. As a result, I have not had an OB GYN checkup in 9 years! I have not been to the dentist in 9 years.
I intend to talk to my T about this next week. I also have some other things I need to take care of health wise but am too afraid to. And the longer I put it off, the bigger it becomes, and the more worried I get, thinking I for sure must have something fatal.
Anyone have any advice about this irrational fear? I know it is ridiculous, but it scares me even more with people lecturing me about how horrible I've been neglecting my regular checkups. I know it's bad.
This is something I really need to get over this year. Has anyone else been though this? This is really causing me turmoil right now. I feel I am beginning down my old slope of developing "symptoms" for diseases of which I am afraid. I feel the old anxiety come roaring back.
Help!!!
poster:Miss Honeychurch
thread:437705
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