Posted by Pandabear on May 11, 2004, at 22:12:43
In reply to Pandabear - did you make it to the doctor's?, posted by partlycloudy on May 11, 2004, at 12:59:28
Nope.. not yet. You know, I was doing better for over a week and then just a couple of hours ago I started to hurt again. Of course, being stupid I started researching what could be wrong with me online and I have now started to think that I have endometriosis. Im scared to death. But, I read that people that have this that it is hard for them to have pelvic exams because it hurts and so NOW im really stressing. I called my therapist week before last when I was hurting so bad and she said that she would get me in to talk to her soon...I really need to go to the doc but I CANT. I am too scared. I realize I could be putting my life on the line by not going but im so scared. Plus, I have been thinking all my life that Im not going to live as long as im supposed to and that I dont want to have any children..(im going to adopt) and what if this is a sign..what if I am going to find out that there is something really wrong with me and im not going to live long OR that even though Im not planning on having children..I come to find out that Im infertile anyway and therefore could never have them if I wanted to...I know im really freaking out..but Im so scared. I wish my therapist could talk to me soon..im really worked up...Im going to get the physical soon..I just need to work through things with my therapist before i go...and that might take some time...I know i sound like a big baby but I truely am VERY SCARED. I wish I could just crawl into a hole.
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