Posted by nomadjones on May 7, 2008, at 20:36:55
In reply to Re: Adolescent Loss of Parent: Effects in Adulthood? » nomadjones, posted by Sigismund on May 6, 2008, at 19:35:27
Sigismund:
Thank you for your kind response, even if you don't have "the answer." It is comforting that others understand where I'm coming from. My wife, raised in the West for generations, has no idea why I can't see the glass, much less a glass half full.
I looked up Korczak - he was quite a man. He showed what he was made of when put to the ultimate test.
I probably read too much about the Holocaust and the Gulag. These are extreme situations where when one's actions don't ultimately change the outcome (other than the possibility of making a brave last stand). Here's a link that resonated with me:
http://www.shoaheducation.com/newber2.html
I'm trying to accept that the universe (at least in the West in the early 21st century) doesn't care about me one way or another (i.e., is neutral) and that I'm not a magnet for bad things happening. It's difficult to change a viewpoint that has helped me explain away so much trauma & bad luck up until now, particularly at vulnerable ages.
I should be more grateful (and have been encouraged to keep track of what I'm grateful for), but I'm constantly worried about bad things happening and losing what I have now.
I wish you peace, Nomad
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