Posted by rjlockhart37 on May 9, 2013, at 14:27:34
I've had this all bottled up in me all this week, I've been prayer hard to God for this condition of my medication not working, it doesn't take effect, its moderalty potent, and it should be working and my body has created a resistance on it. And it is so frustrating because all my depression is getting worse...
so I've been praying many times everyday....urging God in quiet prayers by myself to be healed of this, writing it in journals and placing it upon the alter in my room. It's really making me feel like im going crazy because I get anxiety of this thing that causes this, and the amount of time I've been praying about this is a couple months, maybe a year at max. And I know that God, one year is like 1 second to him, and I don't want to be like the people who had to go into the wilderness for 40years, waiting that long for a prayer....this is so difficult in testing my faith....because of fear and doubt....causing chaos thinking the prayers are just words of nothing but words going into the air, not ever being heard. That's whats causing all this anxiety right now during this time. That's what preoccupies my mind, when im suppost to be active in life and not thinking of little things that seem less than mediocre.
anyways enough with all this.....im just sick of this time, I want it to end. I want to be healed, and trust in something that I know has good intrest.
that's all....thanks for reading
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightment and belief systems
poster:rjlockhart37
thread:1043434
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