Posted by nickguy on August 19, 2006, at 20:38:39
In reply to Curses on software, posted by Declan on August 18, 2006, at 22:08:33
> Hi Nick
>
> Interesting that you mention St John of the Cross. I only know about him because TS Eliot wrote about him and Eliot would have been seriously depressed by our standards. OTOH Eliot drank a fair bit, smoked, and ended his life on barbiturates.
>
> You ever read East Coker, from the "Four Quartets"?
> The second part of East Coker is the most wonderful thing, all about spiritual despair and stuff.
>
> Eliot was asked by Auden why he was always playing patience, and he replied 'I suppose it's because it's the closest thing to being alive'. (The intended word is the opposite of 'alive')
>
> Declan
I'll definetely read that book. I'm always looking for spiritual experience to mine. I don;t blame T.S elliot. I'm drunk right now, sometimes that pain can be too much. I think the anxiety pills are o.k for me because they allow me to interact with the world in a more rational way. I've tried pretty much every treatment out there for depression (besides ECT, MAOI's, and ADDERRALL) and I"m not sure that depression is my diagnosis as much as God taking away the pleasures of my life to open an experience of him beyond the senses. I believe theres always hope, and God loves the worst of people in the world. So I don't always know pain is such a bad thing. But social anxiety is crippling and doesn't allow me to find my way. I think it's o.k for me in God's eyes to take this medicine, atleast for the time being.
poster:nickguy
thread:677492
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/faith/20060614/msgs/678237.html