Posted by snapper on June 8, 2006, at 3:19:09
In reply to Re: Dena How can we talk? RE: TPM, posted by Dena on June 7, 2006, at 23:57:15
> > > > > Hi Dena, thanks for the check in. I have pulled back for right now. Not that I am going to dis-continue. It is very much up to me and my facillitator is very supporting sweet and very kind. She is of the beleif that and so am I, that my OCD (circular thinking and lack of concentrating is getting in the way of the healing process) I still have hope ..even though I am still discouraged and depressed( imagine that) I am just taking a short break. I do beleive that my symptoms are really interferring in the healing process. That in itself is very discouraging. I am ...unfortunately a dougtbing "Thomas" and want soooo much to let go and just beleive the God and or Jesus will give me some semblence of peace from my struggles ...Let me know what you think.
> > Thanks for writing
> > Clint
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> I can't help but wonder whether there'd be a way to get past whatever is at the root of the OCD... I've come to believe that most brain chemistry imbalances have some sort of trauma at the root of them. Have you tried to go there? When your OCD symptoms flare up, have you tried to use TPM to go to the source and origin of THAT feeling?
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> Just wondering... I'm not a professional counselor, but I wasn't "supposed" to be totally healed of bulimia, and the obsessive/compulsive component to it, and yet, I was... (& still am, more than 5 years later).
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> Shalom, Dena
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>Hi Dena,I have let her know of my first "round" of OCD behaviour and I have told her what "it" entailed-- I really do feel wrought with depression hiopeless against this whole thing. Sometimes I do feel like self-destructin. Keep in mind that I am on SSI, have a pretty co-dependent family, have tons of trouble with my own thinking and cognition issues from the anxiety and depression. It just feels terminal Not to mention the unbearable idea of being alone forever-- My self esteem is sooooooo bad that at times I can barely look many people in the eyes. I used to struggle with minor bouts of these issues but now feel terminally doomed. I am very sad and obviously ,daily feel hopeless and un-worthy and not lovable- From a depressiogenic standpoint, I should know these symptoms to be falsities. But none the less....God or who ever He is ..certainly has a better deal for me in store. I am a fight...like many on this board. Up and down sixteen years of this Sh*t is becoming sooooo OLD. I am merely living day by day....taking space up --- I wish at times God would take me to remove the misery. Sorry for such a load of mental stuff all at once but I appreciate your responce and wish I could honestly say that about more relationships, friends, and aqquantances. I feel as low as a snakes bottom. Many don't really even know, of my low and unworthy feelings I have and pearce(sp) my soul and heart on a day to day basis.I feel and long for love and acceptance from others and God--- I am at a point of emotional bluntess! No one is meant to survive with a big black void in thier hearts and souls!
I look forward to hearing from you again soo!
Thanks
CLint
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