Posted by spriggy on October 16, 2005, at 17:16:55
I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling.
I don't want to sound like I'm complaining, I'm not. I am totally and completely and utterly amazed at the way God has already grown this church but I am feeling very, very overwhelmed.
I think the gravity of the responsibility has really hit me this week. We love these people so much and feel like God has brought us the "cream of the crop" so to speak. We have a lot of help but the spiritual responsibility of leading these people has hit me like a ton of bricks.
We have a family that just found out their daughter is on crystal meth (age 18), another family's daughter is having surgery tomorrow for a tumor to be removed (and biopsied), one family is sending their daughter off to an eating disorder clinic and she is very sick, one lady is having a hysterectomy this week, and another family is getting sued by an ex wife.
It's just unbelievable the amount of battles our people are facing and they want/need their pastor (and his wife.. me!) there for support, prayer, and encouragement.
I think I'm realizing the burden that comes with this as well- it's not just leading people and preaching but it's bearing their burden's. It's weeping with them, mourning with them, going through the fire, etc..
I want so much to be a godly example to these women and lead them but I feel soooo inadequate. I feel WAAAAAAAAY too young, too inexperienced, too tired, and overwhelmed.
I'm really wondering what God was thinking when He asked us to do this. Can we do this?
Please pray for wisdom, strength, energy, and that God will equip us to do all He's asked us to do.
Oh and please, please, please, pray God provide a building for us. We had people standing up today during the service.
poster:spriggy
thread:567777
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