Posted by cockeyed on May 13, 2005, at 0:41:48
Please understand, it's late and I'm not wrapped too tight: I once was a "good catlick" boy. And I'm Ptsd'd but more later when I can deal with the damned anger. [you're in a very real sense "damned" when anger rules you] A sample of simple stuff from a simple mind.
But Osama. Is it just me or is he a Christ-Figure. Look at his face. Is that madness or serenity. Christ did say he came to bring the sword. I suspect he said a lot more and St. Paul and the early church executives decided that the corporation was better off without too much input from the founder. I for one suspect Osama is dead,but his spirit lives on. For the muslims as a figure of reverence, for us and our government, as a bogey-man to pry more money from us, the people. Now here comes the kicker. If he was the mastermind behind 9/11 I feel the utmost enmity toward him. I cannot forgive Islam for the barbarism of jihad. If I choose to be a godless, unblieving wretch, then that is precisely why I love this country. Okay so the bible-tells-me-so folks are trying to shove all their ignorant bushwah down every one's throats. That's the spirit of America. Let 'em go for it.But I don't want some american avatar of Osama, no matter what faith, telling me how and when and where and what I must believe. But still I am struck by the evil one man can do in the name of good. Osama is regarded as a religious hero to vast numbers of people. Pope John Paul was a very great and good man and he's done things to the Catholic church which leave it mired in a world thatnever existed. I want to believe in the Easter Bunny, Santa, the Giant Halloween, Pumpkin, God the father, the Son and the Holy Ghost. Oh, right, there are no ghosts. how's Spirit. But I refuse to go to church and pay to stand up or sit down or mumble or whatever the heck one does in church today. Oh, yeah, pray. I do that. I don't believe but I pray. But I keep coming back to Osama. What if he's right, that the United States is one big Las Vegas hell on earth and these maniacs who blow themselves up are martyrs.[I consider them criminals. Fools and dupes.] I hate them. But sometimes I look at TV and realize that our society revels in...seduction? Maybe the real world is best dealt with on a basis of hypocritical spirituality? I don't know. I'm an alcoholic and a manic-depressive...or perhaps a bi-polar mess on an express to oblivion. No one gets out alive. I believe when I'm dead, I'm just like the meat in a super-market only not so appetizing. But there's this sneaky hope and happy feeling that I've got some friend in Jesus or whoever, who no matter what watches over me and when I'm grovelling drunk and sick on the cellar floor sends a bit of light my way and helps me up. What about Osama? Could he be a saint, an anti-christ? I may be off the track but there's something about him that strikes me as Christ-like. That's all folks, I'm going back to pecking at some wood and calling it music. cockeyed. p.s. I Iraq. I'm a pinko liberal but one thing I support about Pres. Bush is going into Iraq and taking out Sadam. Remember hitler and the allies all hoping he would go away. This is a cruel and mean world. Religion is supposed to make it better. Too bad we humans are maybe one percent of the real juice of god, and the rest, 99 percent killer ape. We can justify anything by reason. Is reason spiritual?
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