Posted by Dena on April 15, 2005, at 9:24:03
In reply to Believing God... a question, posted by Spriggy on April 14, 2005, at 17:09:34
> If you could believe God for anything right now, and receive it.. what would it be??
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Wonderful question, Spriggy!You know - it's funny, but I couldn't think of a single "thing" that I wanted to receive...
We're in the middle of trying to sell our house, and wondering when it's going to happen, and then we're moving 3,000 miles away to the place where I'm from...
But I see Him working it all out -- every last tiny detail. It's like an adventure, watching Him work. Everytime I experience anxiety, He comes through. I just keep "heaing" Him say, "Watch me work..."
And, I homeschool my children (7 of 'em), and we're soooo behind on it all, grading, teaching, etc. Sometimes real life gets in the way of a formal education. But I sense Him saying that going through this is a "real life education" that can't be learned from work books or CD-Rom's...
And, since we were kicked out of our former church after our marriage was healed (& we were exposing abuses going on there), we're *quite* hesitant to get involved in a church again... I just want to find a place where people love and follow Jesus, but without the politics, the oppressive heirarchy, the in-fighting, and the legalism... hard to find! And yet, I sense Him saying, "Continue following me, and I will lead you..." And He HAS led me to some rather *surprising* sources of fellowship!
I have concerns because my children are about to lose their friends (they lost their other set of friends last summer when we were officially shunned by our former church) when we move. My husband is giving up regular contact with his family in order to bless me by moving me close to mine. I'm a former army-brat, who went to 3 high schools, so I understand the trauma of moving... And yet I hear Him saying, "I have plans to bless you and your entire family. Watch Me work..."
My marriage used to be a horrible relationship -- full of strife, fighting, misunderstandings and sexual refusal (on my part) ... much of it stemming from my being bulimic, but even when the "elephant" is out of the living room... one needs to clean up what the elephant left behind. And yet, God has miraculously and graciously blessed our marriage beyond my capacity to imagine it... just a year ago, I wanted to leave. But 3 weeks later, God gave me new eyes for my husband, and a libido to match! The poor man has had no rest - (but he's smiling!). I never knew a marriage could BE like this! And I sense God's smiling pleasure on us... it's SUCH a blessing!
So... what else do I have to believe God for?
I guess this would be it: I want to believe God (& receive from Him) the guidance that would keep me ever-seeking after Him. That He would not allow me, or my husband, or my children, to miss out on His purpose for our lives. That we would fulfill the reasons why He created us ... that we would be part of His plan for this earth, and the people on it...
That NOTHING (not my pride, nor my ignorance, nor my fear, nor my stubborness, nor my doubts) would keep me from all that He has for me!
Oh - and add to that, that I would, more and more, see Him more clearly, love Him more dearly, and follow Him more nearly -- day by day....
poster:Dena
thread:484283
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/faith/20050312/msgs/484585.html