Posted by Dena on April 7, 2005, at 12:21:37
Just checking in - after my 32-week exile...
Wondering if anyone remembers me... Funny, but besides Lou, Rayww, Simus, Dinah, and maybe a couple more folks, most of the names are different from the last time I was here.
I've checked in from time to time, and have enjoyed watching the interchanges.
MUCH has changed for me -- same husband and children (all 7 of 'em), but we're about to move 3,000 miles away - back to my home state, where all my family has been throughout my 18 year marriage.
My wonderful husband is giving up everything for me - to bring me "home"...
We've bought an amazing Victorian house, on Main Street in a small town, right on the edge of downtown -- my children and I will be able to walk everywhere - it's a lovely place, full of community - 45 minutes to the ocean, and 45 minutes to mountains with year-round snow caps.
Only two streetlights in town!
For that, I will GLADLY give up "Endless Suburbia", traffic jams, humidity, and isolationism...
We left our church last summer, after discovering just how very legalistic it was, and after they denounced me for being healed, and for falling back in love with my husband -- go figure!I have no idea where God wants to plug me in -- regarding a faith community. I'm quite burned on "pew sitting", and "church as usual" ...
I'm no longer part of "Churchianity" in the traditional, modern sense of the word, as it no longer means to me what it once did...
I do however love and follow Jesus - as He's been redefining Himself to me, and to my family...
I had to take all of my theology, doctrines, dogmas, and traditions, and chuck them...
I just sat there, wondering who I am, who God is, and how He wants me relating to Him...
I told Him I didn't know what I knew or believed anymore, and He would have to give me a personal tutorial.
He's been faithful to do just that.
I'm in awe.
He's soooooo much more than I ever knew.
He's no longer in a box of my own, or anyone else's, making. He's far too huge and mysterious to fit into any sort of box, any sort of definition, any sort of limitation.
He's not safe - not by a long shot.
But He's good. Very good.
I know so little, and have so much to learn.
It's an amazing journey!!!
Shalom, Dena
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