Posted by Spriggy on February 24, 2005, at 15:33:13
In reply to Re: Does anyone get psychotically enraged at god ?? » linkadge, posted by Dinah on February 22, 2005, at 14:37:56
You know what linkadge, I COMPLETELY understand where you are coming from.
My husband is a pastor. I've been a born again Christian for 20 years and I have had the SAME questions and thoughts that you have here recently.
I don't have the answer for you. I don't "get it" or understand it.
Like you, I believe God exists. Actually, I KNOW He does. I know He's there. I know He hears me, I know He sees all that is happening here and has the power to do anything.. but why does He chose to remain silent?
I don't know. It's hard for our human minds to grasp His ways and His plans.
Never in my life have I had to come face to face with everything I "said" I believed in until I've gone through my own suffering.
Suffering does that to you. It basically rocks your whole foundation and belief system.
It's so easy for me to believe that God is good and all powerful when all is well with me... but when the rains have been pouring down and I can't find relief no matter how hard I pray... What then? Where is He then?
I don't have an easy answer. I wish I could console you somehow.... I wish I had a magic bullet answer but I don't.
I'm working through all this myself.
I did just post about my recent journey in the psych unit and the things God did reveal to me while there if you would like to read that. It won't give you the answer your looking for but maybe just knowing you're not alone will bring you some type of comfort.
I am so very, very sorry you have to suffer like this. No man knows the ache of the mind until they've experienced it. I've experienced it. I know the ache.. I know the despair, I know the pit.
All I know to do is to tell you that I will be praying hard for you.
((((HUGS)))))
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