Posted by Miller on March 3, 2004, at 20:55:04
Hello, my friend, Dena.
Thank you for posting to me. I rarely come to this site anymore. Not that I have anything against it... I just felt very frustrated with blocking rules and what can and can't be said by whom.
Anyway, I vividly remember last Lent. I can honestly say that this Lent is going much better for me. I am still struggling with my mental issues. My biggest struggle right now is that I have to make a commitment. If I commit to the Church (Catholic) which is what I believe, I have to let go of my escape hatch, suicide. To many that probably seems like an easy give. I have had that safety net with me for all of my life. I am afraid to go on without it.
I also saw The Passion of the Christ. Such a strong movie. I felt so sorry for Judas. I felt as if I know exactly how he got himself into that mess. Essentially, I have sold Jesus many times in my life. So I could relate to his situation. I also understood why he couldn't forgive himself or beg for mercy. He knew he was too bad. I feel that way a lot.
I was so impressed by the portrayal of Simon and Mary. Mary was so strong through all of her pain. No wonder she is so protected in the hearts of so many people. Simon, with his transformation, was so representative of what we could be if we had the strength.
Anyway, I hope things are going well for you, Dena. I hope you aren't blocked now. Enjoy the Lenten season. I keep praying for you and all of us. Sometimes I am not sure that is what I should be doing, but...
I hope you are at peace, my friend.
-Miller
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