Posted by daydreamer on January 9, 2004, at 17:31:28
In reply to Re: Bi-Polar or a Gift from God?, posted by daydreamer on January 9, 2004, at 17:23:54
one more thing..
I understand you argueing the term of "gift" when it comes to Mental Illness.
To me? part of the disease is a gift.
I wouldnt have my art and music if it werent for the disease (research that one)No one should have to be homeless, and no, they wouldnt see it as a gift (if its what made them homeless in the first place)...
But you know what?
At the same time...I hate who I am.
I cant hold a job.
Im a nervous wreck.
Im loosing myself.
Im loosing my faith.
I have permanent scars on my arms.
Im desperate and confused.
Im unemployed, no money, and I think about crashing my car into a wall at least once a week.So.. am I grateful for the disease OVERALL??
No... no.. no. I hate it.
But theres nothing I can do about it right now..
so I have to look on the sunny side... or Ill break.
poster:daydreamer
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