Posted by simus on January 3, 2004, at 0:04:13
In reply to Re: God and depression » simus, posted by AntiTrust on January 2, 2004, at 16:21:41
I used to wonder "Why me?", and still do on occasion. I regularly have to take a good look around and see what other people deal with: cancer, poverty, war, etc., and it makes me more grateful for what I do have. No one is immune from attack, and I don't know if anyone can live their entire lifetime without something to deal with.
I don't mean to belittle what you are going through. I know how discouraging this battle is. I face it daily too. Some days I am braver and stronger, some days I just want to throw in the towel. I don't have all the answers you are looking for. I wish I did. I just want to encourage you to not give up.
Looking back, I am glad that I battled it out this far. I have two young daughters that would have not only grown up without a mother, but they would have had to live with the shame of their mother taking her life. There are many other things that I have done since that have made a positive impact. This may sound corny, but this holiday season I was watching "It's a Wonderful Life", and it had a whole new meaning to me. I imagined what things would have been like if I hadn't been here the past eight years. Even little things, like the joy of helping friends find jobs who had families to support, and befriending the terminally ill. It didn't seem like much to me at the time, but when the families of these people told me through tears how much what I did meant to them, it made it all worth while. So...hang in there. You have a future and a destiny in Christ. Search for it, and your life will be full and rich, and full of times of great joy and peace.
God bless.
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