Posted by Tabitha on September 8, 2003, at 0:05:38
In reply to Re: Why is it so hard for non-bipolars to get this? » rayww, posted by Dena on September 7, 2003, at 17:25:06
Hi Dena, I've seen flylady-- she's great. It was a while ago that I came across her, so I'll zip over and check it out again.
I agree about the drain to the spirit of clutter and mess. Somehow just having all the stuff in the correct pile helps enormously for me. Then it's not just an amorphous mess, it's a collection of stuff all related to one activity. The whole pile then seems mentally like just one thing.
I still get overwhelmed by sorting, like Rayww described, I have oversized emotional reactions to 'things'. Sometimes just starting certain cleaning task gives me a mini anxiety attack. I just sorted my mom's sewing stuff-- boy did that bring up a lot of emotions, but I managed to keep plodding along. It's just stuff after all.
How to relate this to faith? Well I'll use flylady's name.. Finally Loving Yourself.. for me that includes getting all the 'stuff' tamed and streamlined. My spiritual goal for now is all about self-acceptance, self-love, believing that I'm a totally acceptable product of the Creator's love. As such I deserve an orderly environment, where I can be at peace, and have visitors over without shame about the mess.
Back to the original topic.. I have the same difficulty with having to be in the mood to do certain tasks. When I'm not in the mood, sometimes I can get myself to do a little bit, but sometimes I just can't. It's hard for me to accept my own timetable for things. At least I live alone so there's nobody else pressuring me. I do plenty of that myself.
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