Posted by rayww on August 26, 2003, at 22:43:01
In reply to About Grief..., posted by Dena on August 26, 2003, at 13:59:03
Grief, a friend and foe.My experience with grief was not so. At 18 years of age I learned how to supress it, but 30 years later it began to manifest itself in odd ways. I wonder how many definitions of the "dirty thirties" there are among us.
I did not like my grief journey, yet it is one of the most precious segments of my life's learning. At least I was able to recognize that my deep feelings of grief were not the result of the shallow acts that brought them on. Once I recognized this, I began using any form of emotion or pain to get into the old festering slivers. I used the physical pain after a surgery to enter my old emotional pain. I drew parables from rigid arch supports, and wrote about learning how to feel comfortable walking in my grief. Oh, memories. I stretched to the limit any loss and used that feeling to write stories of other losses, finding that if I was willing to let the writing do the writing, it would always teach me something important in the end. Like the numbers thing, sort of knowing how it was supposed to be. I'm so glad that part of my life is over and I have healed now.
You are wise to feel your grief in the present, and to understand it. You are sharing it with us and hopefully we are receiving some of the burden you bear. Your faith is carrying you during this difficult time. Faith means knowing that no matter what happens, everything will turn out all right in the end. Trust God.
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