Posted by Dena on August 14, 2003, at 12:10:23
In reply to Re: The past four weeks: good bad news » Dena, posted by rayww on August 14, 2003, at 11:05:06
Thank you Ray, for your words of comfort. I know I'm not alone in this, even with my husband on the other side of the country. Even that strange timing has a purpose.
I still feel as though I'm on auto-pilot, so I'm allowing it to be this way. If more grief comes, I'll go with it, I'll even welcome it. The ability to feel, even to feel pain, is a blessing. I spent 21 years being numbed out with bulimia - I'll take pain any day.
I only hope I'm not unconsciously choosing not to feel. I hope I'm not mentally "getting over this", dismissing it as over & done with before I've finished grieving. I don't have a file for this - I've never lost a child before.
Thank you for your kind thoughts & prayers, & for taking the time to respond to me.
Shalom, Dena
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