Posted by Temmie on July 31, 2003, at 12:54:05
In reply to re: Trying to Lift Up, posted by lil' jimi on July 31, 2003, at 8:56:29
Thank you, Lil Jim .... I sure appreciate your support.
Paul is in court right now (I assume) for A&B charges filed by his ex. Apparently she tried to recant her petition, which is of no use at this point, since the suit is (don't know the correct terminology here) being pursued by the Commonwealth of Massachusetts on her behalf. She is planning on showing up today, I hear, and recommending therapy for his PTSD and rehab for various addictions. I'm sure no news is not so great news at this point ... or I'd have heard from him by now.
I didn't know this man carried such a trail of demons when I fell in love with him ... and didn't learn about the possibility that he was experimenting with coke until last night. (Apparently Jane left a message -- oh, it's too complicated to explain who's leaving messages where and for whom), but apparently the word is out.
I'm pretty sick.
Not as heartsick as I was, but pretty sick.
Oh well. I'm (still!) working to raise my Jedi forces, everyone (!). I chanted the AUM all the way to work, and I am praying without stopping. I feel an aura of light and love ... of peace about me.
I am resigned to doing what I must -- and obviously, Paul is in the process of earning whatever outcomes are related to things that happened in the months before we met.
I am all through with "dating" right now .... That date with Dennis was scary enough to set me back a bit.
I'm hoping ... just to be able to focus enough, to take care of me (thank you, Jim!), to attend to the things I must (like this horrible class), and to see where summer's end brings me.
I'll be okay. And when I'm not, you'll hear about it here.
Thank you thank you thank you for writing. I appreciate your words of kindness and encouagement.
Temmie
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