Posted by Dinah on December 31, 2002, at 21:42:03
In reply to Re: empower » Dinah, posted by rayww on December 31, 2002, at 21:12:36
No, I'm afraid I never never find that. Perhaps it's one of those things you have to be expecting to find. Do you find posting to Babble to be draining to you that you need extra help? Or is it the time involved?
So you're a writer? I used to write as a child, but I found that as I grew older, my writing didn't. So I gave that part of me up. I still can access my emotions better through writing than in person.
I think it's great that you can access the joyful child you were. I'm sorry about your dad. Eighteen is young to lose a dad, especially under traumatic circumstances.
So discovering your illness made you question the reality of your faith as well as your personality? Part of my illness, or maybe part of my ego structure, depending on how you look at it, is that I have no real idea of who I am. Each day seems to stand on its own. I don't have a continuous sense of myself as a human being. Yet others seem to see me as being consistently me. So I don't question overly much if my illness has shaped who I am since I don't really know who I am. But I would think that it does, just as your experiences shape who you are. It doesn't make it any less you. Were you able to talk to your bishop about any of your confusion when you were diagnosed? My pastor isn't really someone that I can see myself confiding in, unfortunately. I wrestle with faith issues on my own mainly. Although I haven't wrestled much in recent years.
I do think I remember reading that you felt less spiritual while on meds? Was that part of your decision to discontinue them?
I'm not sure I understand that definition of the word "agency". I remember agency as being related to free will. Have I remembered that one incorrectly?
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