Posted by Mandy on October 7, 2002, at 13:34:22
In reply to Lou's response to Mandy's post-part 4, posted by Lou Pilder on October 6, 2002, at 15:17:31
> Mandy,
> You say that you feel guilty not going to church and that you do not know why you have those feelings.
> Without having you explain what guilt means to you, the general understnding of guilt is that when someone has guilt about something, they feel that they have done something wrong andare usualy sorry for doing it. In your post, it appears that what you are having guilt about is that you are not assembleing yourself with others of your religion on Sunday. But it also appears to me that it is the depression that makes you not want to attend the services , for you say that the depression makes it hard for you to attend because you feel that you are only going through motions when you are at church.
> Mandy, I have to stop to ask you a question, for if I get the answer, then I will better understand what you ave posted and I will be able to better give you my response to your request for support.
> Are you saying that it is the depression that makes you feel that you are only going through motions, or are you saying that you have lost a lot of your faith, even though you believe in God and Jesus, and thearfore you are depressed?
> Lou
>I do not know how to respond to you. I am depressed but I have been depressed before and went to church. Maybe what it is is that I am angry with God--I know it is not his fault that I have had one trial after another in may life- yet still I am angry. I still wish I had died when I attempeted suicide in May, and if it is so important that I stay around because God has something else for me to do, then I just wish HE would show me the way. I am tired of all this blundering about. Whew--did not realize how much anger I really do have.
poster:Mandy
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