Posted by SandraDee on August 7, 2002, at 10:23:51
In reply to Re: Moving on... » paxvox, posted by kiddo on August 7, 2002, at 1:37:48
This is a long story - and I hope it doesn't offend anyone, I don't think it will, but who knows lately...
I have two stories that I believe really shine through that "it was of the Lord's doing". I don't want you to think I"m some cornball or something, even if I am, but I really believe this...
My husband and I were married in 97 and have been together since 91 (since we were 19).
We both wanted kids right after we got married and thought "my, haven't we been lucky all these years!" So we started trying shortly after the wedding. It wasn't working. I decided to see the doctor. She referred me to another doc who saw me about my hormones and what-not. No one ever saw hubby. So, I got perscribed (the first time I went to the referred guy) clomid (a fertility drug) after just a little blood work up. I got pro- something err other... to make me start a period and then clomid was to make the eggs come down. It was expensive, but not as expensive as some treatments. Anyhow, for two months I did that route. Third month I went to TWO clomid pills. The kind of thing you read about getting septuplets on. So, no results yet again, and since ins. didn't pay for any of it, I decided to quit. My whole thinking was that God made these doctors to know what to give me, so I needed their help. Anyhow, we relaxed as much as we could. I decided I was going to lose weight (I had a reunion to go to in 2 yrs) so I bought a pass to our local rec. center (it has a pool and stuff) and started working out and swimming. I only mention that because I know that part helped me too. The night before my birthday in 1998, I got down on my knees and prayed. I cried, "God I really want a family of my own... I'll be 27! I want a baby!! please please!! Make my cycles regular-without drugs, and let me fall pregnant." I got my period the VERY next day, my birthday.
Next month (28 days later) another period. Third month, no period and it was time for my physical. When they did the blood draw I asked them to check for pregnancy. It was positive. God's timing. I'm telling you. God knows I can barely handle what I've got, he knew not to make me pregnant when I was on 2 clomid pills. I really love my kids, and I wanted BOTH of them, I TRIED for both of them. Being a mom is exhausting and fun all in the same breath.
I had told so many people over the years to pray for us; that we wanted to have children. I always felt like God knew my heart, but it wasn't until I broke down and was at my lowest (even on my knees, literally)... that is when he was there for me. That's when he lifted me up. So when I'm asked if I believe in God and if I'm a Christian... Yes. Yes indeed. I do not think that was merely coincidence. Too many years of premarital sex and then the fertility drugs to be coincidental timing. It was God.
Sorry this is so long, it's an emotional and heartfelt thing for me, and that makes it very hard to shorten up.
I don't know how that fits in to Pax's question, but there ya have my input, whatever that's worth. :)
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