Posted by llrrrpp on August 19, 2006, at 10:15:09
In reply to Re: Umm, I think I overdid it » llrrrpp, posted by Jost on August 18, 2006, at 23:06:15
Goals for SATURDAY
Wake up on time
(yep--- but I woke up early again. pray that this is not a recurrance of insomnia)Pack my crap
(yep--- no liquids or gels in my carryon. apparently cherries are okay?)Catch the bus & train without getting robbed or breaking my ankle
(yep)Get through security without losing my cool
(yep)*************
The rest of the day's goals:
1) not to get stressed out on the plane, especially important if I end up sitting next to a difficult passenger.2) to have quality time with my cat. I will post some pictures soon. She just got a hairdo.
3) have quality time with my husband. dinner and a movie date?
4) to not spend to much time on psycho-babble that husband says "why are you hanging out with psychos so much? hang out with me!" [please don't be offended. my husband is kind, but has little understanding of mental illness. I stick up for my babble-buddies all the time-- you guys aren't psychos!
5) to completely ignore my work, and the office life for a whole weekend.
--this goal failed already. a meek coworker sent me e-mails at 3am AND 5am, because she thought something I said was rude and mean. And I sent her another e-mail to apologize for my e-mails, and then I gave her some advice on getting along in a caustic brew of twenty-something ambitious women that is called our "office". [or lab, depending on your perspective]. I think we had a good conversation. I used a lot of tricks that I have been practicing on psycho-babble. Being supportive, non-confrontational, and trying to give advice without sounding too bossy. I feel a lot better now. The air is cleared between us. I think she's a genuinely nice person, but she's very needy, and very uncertain. She tries my patience. Oh well.
6) Eat ice-cream, ideally. Or, perhaps a nice chunk of Schokolade. I have a 500gram (that's over a POUND!) of pure alpine milk chocolate in my bag. YUM! but I cannot eat it all at once. I'll try and share at least a crumb or two with my friends!
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Thank you for reading my goals. I know it's boring, but it's my life. I'm kinda long-winded. Oh well.
********************Self-Esteem status report:
Medium Rare~ Seared on the outside, but still pretty raw inside. At least my heart's not bleeding from guilt. I feel like I have gone to the dark side of the evil office gossip mill, and been a bad friend to the meek one. I'm not feeling too attractive today. Couldn't bring myself to do any grooming above and beyond shower and hairwash. oh. I guess I'm wearing earrings. I look like a slop. A pimply slop. And I was critical of my blubber, which I haven't done in a few weeks. hmm.
I wish I could put me in a crate, tranquilize me, and ship me to my final destination, like the Elephant I am.
-ll
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