Posted by HyperFocus on October 4, 2008, at 2:52:56
In reply to fear of becoming fat.., posted by sam K on September 24, 2008, at 17:53:26
sam k I've really put on the pounds because of medication and lots of comfort food (my aunt back home is an awesome cook and loves to cook for me) but this is how I look at it: the feelings I have about getting fat are not primarily related to what the scale says but are mostly a symptom of my negative self-image. If you have a healthy image of yourself as someone with many positive attributes then the weight gain that accompanies meds may not be such a huge deal as it can be. I'm not saying don't worry about the weight gain but if you feel you're giving way too much attention and have overly negative feelings aboout gaining weight (like I do) it might be the illness talking.
The hope is that my meds will get me to a place where I can do what needs to be done to take the pounds off, but I have to get to that place FIRST. If I'm not there then losing 10 or 100lbs is not going to affect my core self-image much.
Also it might be helpful to understand that we are way too harsh critics of ourselves - most people in the West would say they would love to lose weight. Contrary to the images the media parades in front of us everyday, how much different are we from what the average person looks like? It's also much preferable to be overweight than to live somewhere where you have to eke out a meal everyday. Basically even if you put on a lot of weight things could be way way worse in your life.
So it really doesn't make sense to tear yourself to bits over it.That's how I feel about weight gain (at least what I _want_ to feel, it's not so easy sometimes.) Dunno if you might feel the same way but some food (ha ha) for thought.
> Sometimes I just dont understand myself. If I control my eating I don't feel so great (but thats what my mind wants). But if I don't control is I also don't feel so great because I am not controlling. It's like a trap that I don't know how to get rid of.. probably I just have to keep eating rather than controlling. I just don't get how to get rid of this thought process? Is it my brain, or pshycological? Both maybe.
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