Posted by Racer on April 19, 2008, at 0:40:05
At the end of my last therapy session, my therapist stopped me on the way out the door to ask, "At what weight do we start to get concerned?" I answered with what was basically my lowest weight, which I know I'll never get back to again. I'm not sure what she has in mind to do, and I don't think she'll let the weight I offered stand. I think she'll ask me to revise it.
What's more, she started asking questions about my height, and what I weigh now. I wouldn't answer either of those questions. (Poet says that I've joined her School of Therapy -- refuse to answer any uncomfortable questions. Next week I'll try crossing my arms across my chest and glaring at her...)
I'm afraid, now, although I'm not entirely sure why. I guess it's something new -- last time I lost weight while in therapy, she didn't notice it. The time before that, it was with the Therapist From The Black Lagoon, who didn't notice at all when I lost a ton of weight. (Of course, the doctor at that place described me as "well nourished" in his mmse notes when I was dangerously underweight. I guess they had a slightly distorted body image there, huh?) Partly, I'm afraid that my therapist will tell my psychopharmacologist, and that he'll give me an ultimatum. That's probably silly, but I think that's my fear. And I won't ask her about it, because I don't want to put the idea into her head.
Mind you -- I'm not all that thin. I have lost some weight, but only about half what I lost when she didn't notice. I think it's just that once she noticed it, it's been clearer to her, so she's watching it more.
We've also been doing mirror work, so I think she's also looking at me more. And, of course, if I'm standing in front of a mirror, I'm not huddled under a blanket on her sofa, so she also gets a better view. One of the other things is that she encouraged me to buy some clothes that actually fit -- my pants always fit, but my tops are always big and hide my body. Since she noticed I had lost weight, I went ahead and wore one of the outfits I bought. That's when I did the mirror exercise -- and she had a bit to say about not realizing just how thin I was.
I'm not that thin, but it did feel good to hear it.
And I wish I could actually be thin.
So, what can I expect? Has anyone had that sort of question from a T before? I've never been in eating disorder treatment until now, and my weight has never really been an issue up until now. Is this something that therapists do? Ask patients to set a weight at which we have to start addressing weight or eating? Is this common?
Thanks.
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thread:824196
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