Posted by Wildflower on September 9, 2006, at 12:45:39
I haven't spent much time on this board but after reading some of your posts, I think I'm in the right place.
To look at me, you might not consider me to be overweight. However, I'm trying my best to hide a weight issue. Up until I turned 30, weight wasn't something that obsessed about. Now, I can't stop thinking about it or the next time I'll get to eat.
Right now I'm supposed to be out shopping for new clothes (suits for work) but I'm online trying to avoid the whole crying spell that shopping will trigger. In the last 6 weeks, I've gained 10-15 pounds. This may not seem like a big deal but I'm late to work every morning because I can't fit in my clothes. Pin stripe pants are supposed to have straight lines but the lines are now severly stretched.
I feel like a total fraud. Those who have been around PB for a while know that I teach two fitness classes a week along with my full time job. How can I convince women to lose weight when all I can do is gain it?
Any willpower I had is gone along with my metabolism. I've been researching the *Easy* but non-healthy ways I could lose weight. I'm terrified that I may have an eating disorder if I continue down this path.
It's sad when people told me 10 lbs. ago that I looked the best they've ever seen me. They were being polite after my last weight gain. Those same people are saying the same phrase again. Obviously, they're liars.
poster:Wildflower
thread:684473
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