Posted by heidiramma on July 28, 2005, at 17:08:45
Hey there, I'm new. Who else is on the brink of getting better from the whole ED guy or anorex/buli in general? It's like, ok, eat this now, wait, no wait some more, damn, not eating enough to gain weight and get better, but then, I don't want to feel bloated and freak out and purge.
So, how to deal? Body is used to feast-famine routine. So, fasting is fine during the day, comes quite naturally. Then at night, I can't get myself to be "normal" and just do the meal and let myself go to bed without eating everything I see.
How to feed yourself when you eat too little (but feel 'safe' or comfortable, but eat what your body needs (more calories) and freak out that the body still doesn't know what to do with this food.
I went to the ER, having been told I could get an IV-type nutritional tube to help stabilize the blood and get calories in . . and they told me they only do that for people who are starving to death! Hello? I'm not there yet, but give me a few weeks, ok?! I feel I CANNOT seem to ingest and process the amount of junk I need to 'get well again', and yet, even the ER people won't help me out. "oh, it's a mental problem," they say. Ok then, then why don't YOU tell me why my mind makes me vomit up the same unaltered pieces of food I ate 9 hours ago. Yes, it must be my MIND that is too lazy or rebellious to tell my stomach to digest. Sheesh, why didn't I think of that?!
Anyway, sorry for the run ons, just thinking and being frustrated, so any help or learning experiences others are willing to provide would be great.
Thanks!
poster:heidiramma
thread:534892
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