Posted by BetweenDreams81 on December 27, 2010, at 22:55:57
In reply to Re: Going NUTS! Yet help is just out of reach..., posted by morgan miller on December 27, 2010, at 21:27:05
Hey morgan, thanks for posting.
I loved Rhodiola...but stopped taking it a while ago, and when I restarted it, it didn't have any effect anymore.
I was taking lithium orotate, and it worked wonders for anxiety, but nothing for depression or the absolute lack of drive to do anything...feeling very sluggish. (just ran out)
Haven't tried SJW becuase of the photosensitivity issues, I work outside with the horses a lot, and didn't want to risk it (esp since I will be in sunny FL for the next 3 months)
Have not tried Holy Basil, though it sounds great. Thinking of trying Kanna.
Tried Panax Ginseng, not sure how it differs from the Korean Ginseng....it gives me an energy boost, but if I am in a not so pleasant mood it just gives me more energy behind the unpleasant mood and makes it worse.
Mostly, I was venting looking for options to find another resource to get affordable help. The pdoc I would like to see is rather expensive, the local state mental health services take forever to get appointments and diagnosis. It's a rather frustrating catch 22 to be in when you know how productive you can be if you are feeling well, motivated, and not depressed. And when you feel so stuck without options and are staring down about to hit rock bottom, it is really scary.
For the better part of the summer I was great, but then Sept came and I started to feel the same slump I felt last year. I started taking Lithium orotate and the cyclical thoughts that lead to anxiety went away, but just overall a lack of desire to do much, feeling just bland and at times I will be extremely irritable and irrational for a few days at a time. Then it goes back to this foggy bland state. This past week or so I have been incredibly moody (and it has nothing to do with hormones) starting to feel a bit lower, have had a few spontaneous cries and have been snapping at my mother and my sister for nearly no reason at all. Last night was exhibit A: we had just finished seeing Little fockers (funny movie btw!) and were all starving ready to eat, we went to get take out from my fav Thai restaurant, Mom put in the order, and when we got bakc to the house to eat , all of the food had been spiced to medium spice...a rage came over me I was so looking forward to the food and I couldn't eat it because it was so hot and I snapped, and my entire evening was spoiled from it... it has been very uncomfortable and I hate feeling this way. AND what's more I am supposed to be leaving for FL in 2 wks for my business and will be there for 12 weeks. Last year this similar pattern showed and I ended up under the covers for 2 months, lost 90% of my clientele, and then that was followed by a manic episode (1-2 months??) that led to an unsuccessful relocation to FL and other rather horrible circumstances resulting from not so great decisions. I am scared to death that this is starting all over again. I have not seen a pdoc, because I have not had the funds to do so.
Thankfully, I was able to swallow a bit of pride and borrowed $ to be able to get a thorough evaluation from the pdoc that was recommended to me. Call to make in the morning
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