Posted by Lao Tzu on October 18, 2010, at 16:26:32
In reply to Re: Cordyceps, Reishi and Chaga))Morgan, posted by morgan miller on October 17, 2010, at 11:54:15
Yeah, I kind of feel the same way. The woman I saw a few years ago was much more nurturing than my pdoc, who really just tells it like it is, not much more. I've always felt I needed that feminine influence to guide me down the right path. Not to say a male therapist is not nurturing. I just feel more comfortable with a woman therapist. Back at the beginning of my psychosis, I was so messed up that even when my pdoc suggested therapy, I just basically ignored him. Now that I have recovered somewhat, I'm thinking it might not be a bad idea. I'd like to work with a therapist who has experience in Dissociative Identity Disorder, which has similarities to psychosis, but they are two different illnesses. After reading a little on DID, I am not convinced that is what's bothering me, but the psychological symptoms are similar to what I'm experiencing. However, bipolar psychosis often presents with low motivation, sometimes low energy, and social deficits, all of which I seem to have. My pdoc diagnosed me as bipolar/schizophrenia, so that's what I assume is going on with me. But the psychological components would suggest DID. According to my pdoc, the biochemical illness is under control. Yet, I always wonder how "under control" it really is. I will admit my behavior is in most ways like an ordinary person except for the social withdrawal and my tendency to talk to myself when I am alone. The voices, in a sense, are trying to protect the self from any unseen threats. Even with the medication, they are rather mellow and kind, yet they are always vigilant. They won't go away until I feel safe, and I guess I haven't reached that point consistently. The whole situation leaves me scratching my head, like what is the root cause of how I'm feeling? Is it more biochemical, or is it more on a psychological/emotional/spiritual plane? When I do research, I never get a clear idea of the dymamics of psychosis. Supposedly it is developmental, and life experience can affect how severe it becomes. Like why do people with psychosis often have very strong religious preoccupations? This happened to me as well. I think what we may be dealing with is something biochemical for sure, but something that has its origins from another plane of existence. The problem is, our little brains may not be able to process the whole experience in a rational way, which is why the medication is necessary to stabilize the strange perceptions (hallucinations). Yet no doctor would tell you that the hallucinations could be real in a different sense of the word. To them, there is only one reality, not multiple ones. Anyway, I'll think it over about seeing a woman therapist again. If she specializes in DID, which I think most do not, that would be an added bonus.
Lao
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