Posted by Nemo2 on May 31, 2004, at 17:30:50
In reply to Re: Anyone give up meds? - YES! » Nemo2, posted by BarbaraCat on May 31, 2004, at 16:46:35
Hey Barbara,
Pretty neat that you are a fan of "Sweet Surrender". I can't find a John Denver album with the song included so I learned the lyrics and sing it myself when the spirit moves me. I am also a Tolkien fan. Read the Trilogy and The Hobbitt in college in 1970 or so. I love the heroes and villians of it all. Unbelievable what they've done with the films. Great stuff.
Sorry to hear your day is down this Memorial Day. Saturday and Sunday were not so hot for me, but today is good. I think taking DLPA and Tyrosine together are lifting my mood and easing the chronic internal pain I have. Chronic gastritis and colitis, oh boy! I agree with your thoughts about how tough it is to focus on a good attitude when you are in pain, exhausted and it won't go away. I've been anxious all my life and alcohol was my drug of choice. What a wonderful high, even in small doses. What relief from all that ails you.
However, my body started telling me alcohol was very bad for my insides about 5 years ago and I wasn't listening. Now I've mostly gotten out of the habit of it, but it still becons me under certain circumstances and I relent. Always to regret the choice when I'm sore as hell for a few days and all other parts of my life suffer.
One last note on amino therapy: I'm also boosting their absorption and activity with B3 and B6 like the books tell me to do. As you say, what a Godsend compared to the SSRI thing.
Thank you for the tips on the two authors and their writings. I will check them out on the web and probably get the books.
Last night on TV the networks broadcast some very sad stories of families losing soldiers in Iraq. One widow with two small children told her story of losing her husband the boys father. They read a letter he had written "just in case" he was killed. At the end of the letter he asked his wife to do him the favor of hugging the boys and telling them of their father's love for them and then for her to go outside alone in the night and look to the heavens.....and count the stars.
I have often found peace from my own life's sense of loss and anxiety by doing just that. I refer to it as getting in touch with the "Cosmos". I think I started it one night long ago after watching Carl Sagan's video production of his book of the same name. Stuff that always makes me feel refreshed somehow. Thoughts that rejuvinate my spirit. Distract my thoughts and emotions from dwelling on today's problems and localized pain, etc. Makes me think of the joy of just being who I am, warts and all. Getting back to the good things I like and love about myself. Feeling that life is really worth living.
I know you'll keep getting better, Barbara. I love your approach on taking one substance at a time now. I'm amused by your comment on not being able to tell what substance is doing what inside you when you are taking several at the same time. How true. How frustrating to us all.
Damn complicated vehicles these human bodies. I wish life was simple again like when I was about 22 years old and everything worked perfectly no matter what I did to it. No regrets though. I'm working on getting myself in the right place and being honest with me, my wife, my boss and anyone within earshot.
The good news is that much progress has been made in the last 12 months. Let's see where it goes from here. I can tell that is your mind set and it gives me strength to know you are out there.
Nemo2
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