Posted by muffled on December 18, 2008, at 11:38:25
>Muffled, it isn't clear from your post whether this friend is also a Babbler, but if it is, would you please rephrase those statements into "I" statements? Statements about how you feel rather than about what another person does? Or what another person's intentions might be?
*It was a babbler.
I am a little confused. I seem to be missing something. Inside of me it is missing.
But anyways, that is by way of explaining when I don't 'get' stuff. I guess I am fortunate I don't feel emotions so intensely. I think they suck.
This babbler ignores me, then emails me, and I would be pleased to be a friend and I want to be useful, but then they gone again.
I am inconsistant. I know this. Maybe that is why.
Maybe its got to do w/DD this lack of understanding? My DD is mild, but I guess the definition of disorder, is that it causes problems.
I am ever sorry for this.
Oftimes I read my emails to my T over and over and over and over. I am trying to undertsand the words. To see if they were right. Cuz I write it and do a quick review and then send, otherwise all is lost in editing.
I wonder, if as a result of this seeming lack of connection I seem to have btwn words and how they are perceived makes me an unlikely candidtate for babble.
I agree with myself and I think I need to babble just a wee bit (if possible, its hard to do that and not feel disconnected...) and mostly stay away and connect IRL.
So I will try the rephrase as I have always struggled with this:"she ignored me and went away"
I went to chat to see how a babbler that was there was doing, and when I arrived and said hi, she went away, I felt sad.
" I guess I tried to in a neutral way connect, and was rebuffed very thorougly indeed."
I guess I tried in a neutral way to connect, but ended up feeling badly."
Is this right?
Despite myself I am feeling triggered. Its a curious thing indeed the human psyche.
I struggle with being bad, or perceiving I am so. I think this is not uncommon here. Makes me wanto punish the bad part.
Damn I hate my weaknessess.
Lemme know.
Thanks
M
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