Posted by 10derHeart on March 16, 2008, at 1:02:10
In reply to Re: OK I give up I guess I am wrong to get all, posted by rskontos on March 16, 2008, at 0:30:36
oops, did I mess up? I just thought from what you and others posted that some think Dr. Bob is personally around deleting posts and so forth, and I just wanted to say *I* (and other deputies) are responsible for doing that. Not with his guidance, or at his direction or anything like that. Maybe I misunderstood your post to Kath.
That was all. I don't think you are "wrong" or that you should leave, or that your feelings aren't valid, or anything like that. Racer and Dinah, IMO, posted here because they care about me and know I am often still lacking confidence about all sorts of posts, whether I've come across wrong, been accidentally uncivil, sounded stupid, or screwed up some other way, etc., and so they were moved to support me. Do you know that's why I hardly ever post on Psych any more even though I am leaving my T. in 7 weeks, my heart is breaking, and I am desparate to post? Too scared, too self-critical....blah, blah. But anyway......
I'm confused about why their posts, which were aimed at me, would convey a message to you that you are 'wrong?'
>.....so I will be silent
:-( I don't want anyone to feel silenced.
> go back to lurking someplace else
:-( I hope you change your mind and stay. I know the psych board posters will miss you.
I am sorry if I worsened anything. I was trying to fill in some blanks and have openness, with what little I do know, thinking it would ease some speculation or misunderstanding of who is doing what.
I'm tempted to say something that sounds like 'I give up' - but you know, I won't, I'm not and I don't. I don't do hopelessness. Communication is difficult in this medium, but this place is fundamentally good, and so I refuse to stop trying here, or in other parts of my life.
I just refuse.
Please take care, rsk, your posts lately sound so sad and resigned, I feel like crying for you when I read them. Not sure if you'll believe me, but it's true. If I could fix it all, I would.
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