Posted by muffled on December 31, 2006, at 19:44:55
In reply to Re: being mentally ill is not easy » muffled, posted by fayeroe on December 31, 2006, at 17:47:25
Thanks,
Hugs are OK.
This seems to happen over and over.
And it just makes me sad.
This place has potential.
But it can be so bloody awful too.
And people can hurt you even within the 'guidelines', but I can lash out or run away. I have a choice.
But Bob has the power to banish.
And I truly don't think he understands what that means to some people.
Mebbe some don't care.
But there's those that do.
There's those that struggle with the fact that they are not detritus. Even if in their life it was so, and lingers deeply embedded in their soul.
I am learning to fight this thots. But they are deep within and strong.
For me to be blocked is very hard. I live in fear. I try to help change despite it. I see friends fall.
Yes I can chat, and now that I have babblefriends they may perhaps e-mail me.
I would survive.
But such a brutal punishment for such a small crime...
And I don't think I'm the only one.
When you are treated as inhuman, it has negative long reaching consequences. And so we find this site....
I dunno.
I dunno anything.
I just keep hoping that mebbe Bob will understand. That mebbe he DOES care enough to change this thing. But mebbe thats not in his nature.
I feel my future here may be limited.
And there's such good people here.
Makes me sad.
Muffled
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